“Marijuana is different, that really helped me,” Prince Harry said doctor and author dr Gabor Mate on Saturday in a highly regarded live stream interview on the importance of personal healing.

The Duke of Sussex opened up about his drug use on Zoom ZM Conversation, nearly two months after the release of his much-anticipated memoir Spare, which details how he came to terms with the death of his mother Princess Diana. Harry was 12 when his mother died in a car accident in August 1997 Paris.

Harry told Dr. Maté, an expert in trauma and child development, that he started using cannabis and other drugs when he was 17.

“I was a seventeen-year-old willing to try almost anything that would change the pre-established order. At least that’s what I tried to convince myself of.”

The Duke also said that psychedelics like ayahuasca served as a liberation from the outside world.

“I started doing it for free and then I realized how good it was for me. I would say it’s one of the fundamental parts of my life that has changed me and helped me deal with the trauma and pain of the past,” he said.

“It was cleaning the windshield, cleaning the windshield, removing the filters of life, just like on Instagram, those layers of filters. It removed everything for me and gave me a sense of relaxation, liberation, comfort, a lightness that I could keep for a while.”

Harry also revealed that he felt strong peer pressure to drink alcohol.

“I was at a dinner party and people were all drinking and I wasn’t the one drinking. I felt left out of the conversation, to the point where it was like, ‘If you don’t want to have a drink, go.’ So I was like, ‘Okay, I’m going.'”

The duke admitted he had also tried cocaine when he was 17, but that it hadn’t gotten him anywhere. “It was more of a social thing. It gave me a secure sense of belonging. It also made me feel different than I was…